Do you ever feel like the world is just spinning out of control and the only thing you can do is try to hold on? Well, that’s my life right now. I’m just holding on. It’s been so crazy. Lately all I do is work. It’s wearing me down really quickly. Here’s a short breakdown of my day. Get up. Walk the Dog. Go to work for 10-12 hours. Walk the dog. Read and/or watch TV till I fall asleep. That’s it. 7 days a week. I haven’t gone anywhere or worked out in a while. I feel like such a bum. I have a few pleasant distractions. Shelly, B, and I go to lunch. James calls and always makes me smile. Lizzy and I have tea everyday at 3. (It’s not just the tea, it’s the conversation and lack of work for the 5 minutes it takes to brew a pot of tea.) They are small things, but they really help to break up the day. I need to do something drastic to change the direction my life is going in. I am not happy. I don’t sleep at night. I’m not eating right. One day I don’t eat anything and the next day all I have it cookies. I don’t want to look up and be in this same place next year or even next month. This is NOT living, it’s just being. I want to LIVE!