Sorry for not updating ya'll. Haven't really been up to much of anything. Laying on the couch watching TV right now contemplating life. I have sooo much to think about right now. And believe it or not, Tico isn't even my biggest concern. Right now I have to get a job. I was going over my money and realized that time has come and past for me to get on the ball. That plus the fact that my roommate leaves next month, so the rent checks end soon. I don't really want to be an engineer again, but it's looking like my best option right now. I don't want to be a waitress again. Not because I didn't like it, but mainly because I don't want to get home at 4am anymore. I really have no idea what I want to do still. I just know that I have to do something...
As for Tico, he calls me every day, several times a day. He is spending time with his father and his son. I know that you guys are concerned and I thank you for that. I know that it would be so much easier if I just walked away, but it's much harder to do than it sounds. Maybe it's my fault for getting so attached so fast. Maybe I should have run when I first found out about all of his drama. But I didn't. I don't know why I didn't. When I think back on it all, I sometimes think I should have left. But then I love him... I miss him right now. I can't imagine him not being around.
Shawn - You don't have to say what you really think. I already know it because I would say the same thing to any friend of mine that told me this story.
Aziza - I'm trying to evaluate things now. My gut is all confused too! Lol!
Miz JJ - I'm watching and waiting to see. I believe him and so far, he's always told me the truth.
ShellyP - Thanks for the email. It's way too much to reply to here. But I will say, she does know about me. He told her right before going up there.
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Think about it...what would you tell me if the roles were reversed? I'm really interested to know. What would you say to KM and BB? Wouldn't you be concerned for me getting hurt? Wouldn't you be warning me that this path is dangerous?
There are very few perfect situations so I wouldn't say to hold out for one of those, but I would say to at least leave the man alone until his divorce is final. Ok, I mean at least until he FILES for a divorce. Did he do that last week like he said he would?
I am not going to judge because I have been in my fair share of messy situations. Who am I kidding, more than my fair share.
If you believe in him then that is all that really matters. He is your man and if you want to support him then do it. Although, it seems as though your gut is telling you something. Is it the reaction of others that is bothering you, or do you deep down think you are heading for heartbreak?
One last thing if Tico is living with you he is paying you some sort of rent...right?
Hang in there. It is my prayer that things get better.
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