Big Baby

Ok, so the official count is 10 days till my vacation and boy do I need it. Work is just kicking my butt. I mean, there is a serious bug and I can’t find it anywhere! I’d like to blame the underlying code and say that my stuff is perfect. In fact, I will. But that doesn’t mean I’m under any less stress. We still have to release on time, otherwise it will look bad on the whole department! No stress, right? So, with all the long days and weekends it just got to be too much. Yesterday I had a bit of a breakdown. Yes, I cried at work. I know, I know, I am a grown woman and it’s just code, but I couldn’t help it. I am a very emotional person, and lack of sleep and proper nourishment have just gotten the best of me. It was kind of funny because the project manager guy just ran away. He came back about a half hour later looking a bit scared.

And to make matters worse, a close friend of mine had a death in the family, which I found out about yesterday. It’s actually more than that. Her family IS my family. We were college roommates and, seeing as I lived so far from school, I didn’t go home much. I went to her house. Every thanksgiving, spring breaks, long weekends… They treat me as one of the family and I love them all so much. I even used to send her little brother and sister money when they were in school. I was in Kentucky with them when my Grandma Jean died. And Maw Maw was the one to make sure I was ok. Anyway, it is just really hard for me to deal with today. I wish I could be there to help them through the loss. We’ll all Miss out Auntie.

But for now, I have to keep in mind, THERE’S NO CRYING AT WORK!